BREADTH PIECES

This is my updated artist statement:

I like to think of myself as someone who takes charge; someone who is passionate about what they believe in. I have always believed in myself as person wwho takes the initiative to get the job done. Using art, I can communicate. I can express my passions and my beliefes. I can tell the world how I feel, what I think, and what i want to change. I have always been inspired by the things around me. I have always represented my life challenges through my art. This summer, my perspective on who I am changed. With that personal change, my art transformed into something new,

After experiencing and extremely negative review on what someone truly though about me, I felt the need to understand why. Although this person had no deep impact on my life, their harsh words gave me the opportunity to reflect on the choices in my life. I came to the conclusion that I was acting like someone I was not. Whether it was to get attention, or to hide who I was inside, I needed to change.

One way I hide myself physically is through make up.. No, I do not cake it on, nor do I wear unsightly globs of mascara, but it is a barrier protecting me from the outside world. How do I represent that visually through art?

In front of my entire class at SAIC early summer program, I painted on liquid eyeliner unto my eyelids. I covered my cheeks with foundation and I smeared gloss over my moth, Pressing the construction paper rather hard against my face, I started to cry. I did not mean to cry, nor was this a "drama camp" exercise. But something overcame me-something cloudy washed away inside of me and I felt like I saw the truth for the very first time.

Wiping off the very stuff that hid me from the world and showing myself to almost perfect strangers was a completely new experience. I felt rejuvenated and terrified at the same time. Who is this person I was...and who will I become now? Shaking the the new found realization, I understood more about myself in those five minutes that I have my entire life. I realized that make up was not the only mask I wear and that there is so much more to discover about myself.

Have you ever said something out loud, maybe embarrassing, that you did not want anyone else to hear? Maybe something slipped out. Maybe you called your teacher "mom" by mistake or gossiped about a friend's secret. You want to hurt yourself. You t punch yourself in the gut and start all over again. The reason I smash the paper so hard against myself is because I am embarrassed of how I handled situations iin my past. I want to punch myself for the things I have done, the people I have hurt, and the things I have said. I want to wipe away the dirty, grimy exterior of who I used to be and exfoliate into a new layer, a new beginning.

My art is an exploration of the discoveries I have recently made. It narrates my relationships, past and present. It exploits my fears as well as my self discovery. My art defines my pain with a chronic illness, a departure from someone I loved, and an awareness of self. knowing that the visions in my head have never been seen of or thought of by anyone else keeps my motivated in art. It is engraved into who I am and I am constantly inspired to create.

This is one of my new pieces for my breadth. I think I am going to start doing more things with color and shape like this. It was fun for me and I enjoyed making it. There are still the ideas of past relationships present. The words "stains on my seasons" represents how people who used to be in my life have left their memories behind through the changing seasons. When I feel autumn or summer, I feel these people freshly present in my mind and it haunts me. The colors represent seasons:particularly fall and summer. The cut up magazine on the girl's shirt are images of winter and duck hunting season. The black splots literally represent the stains all over the bright colors(seasons). I also used tissue paper because it relates to the idea of staining or leaving behind a color-an after thought or a bad taste in your mouth.

These are the last pieces for my SMASH portfolio for NFAA and SCHOLASTICS. These pieces became extremely intimate considerng the paint on them is my direct body contact unto the paper. After I painted, I took a shower which took off layers and layers of paint. After feeling like I had peeled layers of skin off, I have never felt more clean.

researching pop art for my new piece.
I want do more pieces that are really colorful and graphic with lots of shapes in them. One of my favorite artists is Roy Lichtenstein. I love how he uses color to make shapes and how simple they are-What I want to accomplish in my next piece is a great emphasis on color. One of my weaknesses is being neat and meticulous with my art. I need to be more careful when accomplishing a final piece. This idea=challenge

I have a commission piece to do for a family friend. He is obsessed with the Kentucky Derby and wants one of my pictures of a race in his living room. I decided if I make it based on color, I can use it for my AP design portfolio. Her are some ideas for horses paintings.
PS:animals are not my thing so this will be quite the challenge.

Smash portfolio

There were many thoughts and feelings that went into the creation of "smash". It started out with a message, a facebook message, from one of my"friends". Apparently, I had pissed him off so badly that he decided to blatantly describe every single one of my insecurities unto writing. One of them being-that I cover up who I really am and try to be someone I'm not.

Although this "friend" is a raging lunatic and we were never really that close, his words stung more than any dis or insult I had ever heard-and boy have I heard some mean things. I think they had such an impact on me because a lot of it was painfully true. I was acting like someone I was not. Whether it was to get attention, or to hide who I was inside, I needed to change.

One way I hide myself physically is through make up. No, I don't cake it on, nor do I wear unsightly globs of mascara, but it is a barrier protecting the real me from the outside world.

How do I represent that visually-through art?

In front of my entire class at School of the Art Institute of Chicago Summer program, I painted on liquid eyeliner unto my eyelids. I globbed foundation unto my cheeks and I smeared gloss all over my mouth. Pressing the construction paper rather hard unto my face, I started to cry. I did not mean to cry, nor was this a "drama camp" exercise. But something overcame me-something cloudy washed away inside of me and I felt like I saw the truth for the very first time.

Wiping off the very stuff that hid me from the world and showing myself to basically strangers was a completely new experience. I felt rejuvinated and terrifed at the same time. Who is this person I was...and who will I become now? Shaking with the new found realization I understood more about myseld in those 5 minutes than I have my entire lifeI realized that make up was only the literal masks we wear everday and that there is so much more.

Have you ever said something out loud-maybe embarassing-that you did not want anyone else to hear? Maybe something slipped out. Like you called your teacher mom by mistake or you told someone your best friends secret. You want to hurt yourself. You want to punch yourself in the gut (tyler durden style) and start all over again. The reason I smash the paper so hard against myself is because I am embarassed of my past. I want to punch myself for the things I have done, the people i have hurt, and the things I have said. I want to wipe away the dirty grimy exterior of who I used to be and exfoliate into a new layer, a new beginning.

Wipe away the past. Smash who I was. Draw in a new beginning.

I'm researching for my "Smash" portfolio I want to delve deeper into my idea.


Even though this is an ad for dawn, I love the hidden face. I could use unusual media for the next piece-and possibly ad more detail.






Desira Pesta is the artist that did the piece above of Woody Allen.

This was a breadth assignment in my 2d portolfio class. It was based on the perspective technique of foreshortening. I think I am going to change it up a bit and put color in the rest of the background.

This is a painting I have recently done. The colors and shapes are significant to me. They describe how my relationships with people and go but leave a lasting impression. It is pretty big- I think around 5'x3'. I might want to make my concentration for AP 2d design based on these ideas.

These two pieces are part of a portfolio I am submitting to NFAA young arts foundation scholarship. The portfolio is called "Smash". It is about the masks we all wear every day-in a literal sense, (make-up, hair styles, clothing) and in metaphorical sense (The acts and faces we put on every day to be socially acceptable).

More pieces to come!